Will You Stick Around For This Storm? I'm A Bit Of A Disaster.
What was/is the point of getting a dog if you’re not going to take care of it?
My “cousin” (she’s related to me in a distant relative kind of way) who rents a room at my house bought a dog during summer or spring. This household already has 2 dogs, her dog makes it 3. She never even asked or mention about a dog. She just bought it. When she first had it she kept it her room at night and when she was home. She would leave the dog outside in the backyard when she went to work. She was a typical person who takes of their dog by feeding it, bathing it, and whatever else dog owners do. But Since about mid autumn or so, her dog has been permanently left outside. She doesn’t feed her dog before leaving for work or when she gets home. My family has been left to this chore. The only time she even acknowledges the presence of her dog is when it needs to be bathed. She gives it no love or plays with it. I don’t even think she has brought it to the vet. Her dog has a name but no collar or tag. The nights have been really cold now that its winter. I have no heater and her dog is a small shaggy dog (like emy’s dog), imagine the nights for it. Now she is in the Philippines on vacation. We knew she was going and all my family and I could hope for was she would take the dog with her and leave it with her family. But nope, that didn’t happen. Now my family is to take care of a dog that no one can stand until she returns. When I’m at home I have to deal with the whimpering/barking loudly in garage at night. This dog does this a lot especially when we let our dogs in the house when it rains. In the morning my sister has deal with its annoying barks (she doesn’t wake up until 10 and my dad lets the dog out at 7 or 8).
Venting. Personal. Seriously. Fuck.
I go to the restroom and come back to the room. People start saying “Have you seen what [person’s name] posted on the band page?”, I answer “No” and one of my band mates shows me the post. My first reaction is, “What the hell is this? You got to be fucking kidding me!” From then, I went into full blown anger. I wanted to punch the shit out of that person. I don’t even know the guy (I know who he is but I don’t talk to him). I calmed myself down slightly but I could feel/hear my heart beating faster from the anger balling up inside me. Checked my phone and I get a text from a friend talking about the post. Apparently, someone who I thought was cool/okay started the rumor then took [person’s name] phone and posted it under [person’s name]. Then friend who was also mentioned in said post texted me about it. I told him what the first friend said. First friend got [person’s name] to remove the post.
Even with it gone, the damage is done and I am honestly mad and saddened. I try hard not to start rumors and I don’t say fake/real shit about person unless I need be. I haven’t done a thing to the person who started the rumor. It had to be the [instrument section]. Real mature guys! After this shit I don’t even want to talk to the guy who started this, the other person mentioned, and the people who could have initiated this crap. Thanks guys. What great friends you are. I honestly would be fine had my close friend had not told me about what people saying in the first place a few weeks ago.
I need to calm down. I want to go somewhere to scream at the top of my lungs. Someone take me there. Take me to the middle of nowhere, let me clear my head, scream until I tire out, and cry until my eyes run dry. Take me away.
Lesson learned again. Trust no one. Everyone is an enemy.